{5543}{5591}- How'd it go, Tom?|- Oh, thrashed 'em.
{5591}{5644}Led all the way.
{5644}{5733}Lydia wanted trouble|this evening, Christopher.
{5735}{5790}Any news of Julian?|I suppose he's all right, is he?
{5790}{5850}Julian? Yes, he's fine.|I think he went down to London.
{5850}{5915}- I ordered the '45.|- Beg your pardon.
{5944}{5989}Jack? Jack.
{5992}{6059}- Jack, what a surprise.|- What do you mean, surprise?
{6061}{6100}Not out plying your trade?
{6102}{6145}What trade is that, Christopher?
{6147}{6193}I see you as a species|of medieval pedler...
{6195}{6289}selling relics of the saints|of dubious authenticity.
{6289}{6380}Don't complain, Christopher.|Jack's no Roman. I can vouch for that.
{6382}{6445}I speak metaphorically, Harry.|Jack's trade is the manufacture...
{6447}{6512}and supply of easy answers|to difficult questions.
{6514}{6567}What's he say?
{6567}{6644}He says Jack has easy answers|for difficult questions.
{6646}{6711}I've been meaning to ask|about your brother's books.
{6711}{6776}Does he actually know|any children?
{6778}{6843}- Jack? I don't think so.|- How on Earth does he pull it off?
{6845}{6912}Barker, this isn't|the Charmontagne '45?
{6915}{6965}To the best of my belief,|it is, sir.
{6965}{7008}- Just one moment, sir.|- No, Nick, no.
{7011}{7075}You do not agree with Marcus.|You disagree with Marcus.
{7078}{7126}But Marcus says|he agrees with me. Marc?
{7128}{7200}Marcus has no real grasp|of his own thought processes.
{7205}{7260}Also, he tells|the most terrible lies.
{7279}{7361}I'm intrigued, Jack. Apparently|you don't know any actual children.
{7363}{7423}- That's balderdash.|- I'm sure Rupert could spare...
{7425}{7471}one or two of his brood.
{7471}{7543}Jack, you forgot my wine.
{7581}{7656}- There.|- Thank you, Barker.
{7656}{7706}Who says I don't know|any children? You?
{7708}{7831}- Warnie.|- My brother was a child once, Rupert...
{7833}{7905}and, as unlikely as it may seem,|so was I.
{7931}{7989}Thursday tomorrow, Jack.
{7989}{8051}Yes. The week's almost gone|and I haven't done half my letters.
{8054}{8116}- You don't have to write back, you know.|- Don't have to write back. I know.
{8118}{8195}- It merely encourages them.|- Yes.
{8197}{8262}"Mr. C.S. Lewis thanks you|for your letter...
{8265}{8334}but has nothing whatsoever|to say in reply."
{8382}{8437}It's going to be|quite a frost tonight, Warnie.
{8437}{8483}Too many stars. Confuses me.
{8850}{8895}Nightcap?
{8898}{8943}Don't think so.
{9631}{9694}- There you are.|- London tomorrow.
{9696}{9761}Who are you lecturing?|Disabled veterans?
{9792}{9883}- Church widows?|- Association of Christian Teachers.
{10125}{10185}- Night, Jack.|- Night, Warnie.
{10458}{10530}Garden, enclosed by a high wall.
{10533}{10566}Inside the garden,|a fountain.
{10569}{10655}In the fountain,|two crystal stones.
{10657}{10744}In the crystals, in reflection,|a rose garden.
{10746}{10837}In the midst of the roses,|one perfect rosebud.
{10866}{10940}Guillaume de Lorris is using|the rosebud, of course...
{10943}{10993}as an image.
{10995}{11031}But an image of what?
{11031}{11089}- Love?|- What kind of love?
{11091}{11139}Untouched?
{11144}{11226}- Unopened, like a bud?|- Yes. More?
{11228}{11319}- Perfect love.|- What makes it perfect?
{11319}{11386}- Come on, wake up.|- Is it the courtly ideal of love?
{11389}{11449}What is that?|What is its one essential quality?
{11475}{11508}- Un...|- Unattainability.
{11532}{11602}The most intense joy|lies not in the having...
{11604}{11672}but in the desiring.
{11674}{11763}Delight that never fades,|bliss that is eternal...
{11765}{11875}is only yours when what|you most desire is just out of reach.
{11921}{12000}- What was that, Mr. Whistler?|- Nothing, Mr. Lewis.
{12002}{12060}If you disagree with me,|say so.
{12060}{12110}Fight me.|I can take it.
{12113}{12209}Even I can't fight|on both sides at once, you know.
{12211}{12278}Or, at least I can,|but I'm liable to win.
{12393}{12480}Why is the beer here|always cold? Cold beer!
{12499}{12539}Chills the stomach.|Has no taste.
{12539}{12587}I have a complaint|about the wardrobe.
{12590}{12643}Complaint?|Our children love it.
{12645}{12734}I will not have another conversation|about Jack's blasted nursery.
{12736}{12786}No. Listen.
{12789}{12863}In the book you describe the house|as belonging to an old professor...
{12866}{12949}who has no wife,|and yet...
{12952}{13019}you say that when the little girl|enters the magic wardrobe...
{13019}{13067}she finds it full of fur coats.
{13067}{13144}- Oh, very good, Eddie.|- It's simple.
{13144}{13218}It belonged to the professor's|old mother. Simple.
{13218}{13283}Aha. So,|to reach the magic world...
{13285}{13362}the child must push through|the mother's fur.
{13362}{13419}I won't have that, John. There's none|of your hand-me-down Freudianism.
{13419}{13508}But the imagery is Christian, surely.
{13508}{13585}No, Harry. It's what it is.|Just itself.
{13587}{13671}It-lt's...|It's just magic.
{13674}{13741}Magic. Look.
{13767}{13858}Let me show you.|The child steps into the wardrobe.
{13858}{13899}The coats are thick and heavy.
{13901}{13997}- What about the fur?|- Fur's not important.
{14019}{14064}The child must push through.
{14067}{14134}They're pressing close,|almost suffocating.
{14136}{14208}And suddenly,|there's white light...
{14211}{14256}crisp, cold air...
{14256}{14309}trees, snow.
{14311}{14357}Total contrast, you see.
{14359}{14434}It's the gateway|to a magical world.
{14517}{14563}What time is it?
{14565}{14616}Good Lord, my train.
{14616}{14661}Anyway, well...
{14700}{14743}See you all tomorrow.|Bye.
{14788}{14846}- Cheerio, Jack. See you.|- Good-bye, Mr. Lewis.
{14925}{15021}Yesterday, I received a letter...
{15028}{15095}that referred to an event|that took place...
{15098}{15182}almost a year ago now,|December 4, 1951.
{15184}{15232}My correspondent|hadn't forgotten.
{15232}{15275}I doubt if any of us have.
{15275}{15311}That was the night...
{15311}{15371}a Number 1 bus drove|into a column...
{15371}{15453}of young Royal Marine cadets|in Chatham...
{15455}{15508}and killed 24 of them.
{15510}{15539}You remember?
{15577}{15623}The letter asks...
{15625}{15683}some simple|but fundamental questions.
{15745}{15824}Where was God|on that December night?
{15824}{15872}Why didn't He stop it?
{15903}{15963}Isn't God|supposed to be good?
{15963}{16018}Isn't He supposed|to love us?
{16069}{16129}Does God|want us to suffer?
{16201}{16282}What if the answer|to that question is yes?
{16285}{16349}See, I'm not sure that God|particularly wants us to be happy.
{16352}{16412}I think He wants us to be able|to love and be loved.
{16414}{16481}He wants us to grow up.
{16512}{16577}I suggest to you|that it is because God loves us...
{16579}{16635}that He makes us|the gift of suffering.
{16663}{16745}To put it another way,|pain is God's megaphone...
{16745}{16807}to rouse a deaf world.
{16872}{16925}You see, we are like|blocks of stone...
{16927}{17023}out of which the sculptor|carves the forms of men.
{17023}{17097}The blows of His chisel,|which hurt us so much...
{17143}{17191}are what make us perfect.
{17253}{17299}Thank you very much.
{17481}{17560}A woman has had a dream|about me.
{17560}{17632}She writes to ask|if I've had a dream about her.
{17687}{17754}I had a strange dream|last night.
{17757}{17824}Another letter|from Mrs. Gresham.
{17826}{17908}- I can't remember any of it.|- Jewish Communist Christian American.
{17910}{18001}You may ask me how I know|it was strange if I've forgotten it.
{18004}{18052}- Can't answer that one.|- I like her letters.
{18054}{18131}She can be quite sharp|sometimes.
{18133}{18183}Listen to this, Warnie.
{18224}{18267}She says, "I can't decide|whether you'd rather be...
{18272}{18368}the child caught in the spell,|or the magician casting it."
{18409}{18454}See, her letters are rather unusual.
{18457}{18536}She writes as if|she knows me somehow.
{18538}{18608}Still, I suppose there is something|of me in my books, isn't there?
{18634}{18718}I expect|it's just the American style.
{18718}{18795}Americans don't understand|about inhibitions.
{18821}{18869}Ah. She's coming to England.
{18910}{18958}She's coming to Oxford.|She wants to meet us.
{18960}{19023}- Well, she can't come here.|- She knows.
{19025}{19106}Of course not. But she does suggest|tea in her hotel.
{19109}{19162}Tea is safe.|A hotel is safe.
{19188}{19236}Though she might be mad.
{19236}{19327}No, I don't think so.|She does write poems.
{19327}{19406}Poems?
{19409}{19454}She'll be barking.
{19516}{19579}You won't be too agreeable,|will you, Jack?
{19581}{19627}Don't worry, Warnie.
{19977}{20085}She'll turn out to be writing|a dissertation on Wardrobe.
{20085}{20152}She'll ask if she can come watch you|while you create.
{20154}{20219}She'll say, "I'll sit in a corner.|You'll never know I'm there."
{20250}{20296}It's only tea, Warnie.
{20298}{20353}An hour or so of polite conversation,|then we go home...
{20356}{20416}and everything goes on|just the way it always has.
{20416}{20485}Shall we have some sandwiches?
{20488}{20550}I wonder if they do|toasted tea cakes.
{20672}{20749}Excuse me. I'm here to meet|Mr. C.S. Lewis, the writer.
{20751}{20799}Yes, madam.
{20850}{20917}- Well, do you know what he looks like?|- No, madam.
{20919}{20965}Well, he doesn't know|what I look like either.
{20967}{21029}Yes, madam.
{21032}{21077}Any ideas?
{21080}{21140}No, madam.
{21276}{21327}Anybody here called Lewis?
{21643}{21703}- Mrs. Gresham? How do you do?|- A pleasure.
{21705}{21751}- This is my brother, Warnie.|- Major Lewis.
{21787}{21830}Please, sit down.
{21869}{21914}So, you managed to find us.
{21916}{21986}Yes. I used the guide|and it was easy.
{21986}{22051}It's just that you don't look|at all like C.S. Lewis.
{22053}{22163}Well, I'm sorry to disappoint you,|not to mention the rest of Oxford.
{22243}{22324}No, l...|So you don't like that.
{22408}{22478}Well, I'm not what you might call|a public figure, Mrs. Gresham.
{22480}{22537}Oh, you're not?|I mean...
{22540}{22605}You write all these books and you give|all those talks and everything...
{22607}{22672}just so everybody|will leave you alone?
{22674}{22708}Oh, dear.
{22734}{22804}We've only just met|and already you see right through me.
{22868}{22923}- Tell me, do you drink tea?|- Tea? Sure.
{22923}{23015}- It's England, right?|- So it is. Waiter?
{23118}{23168}Actually, look, l...
{23170}{23250}I'm a little in awe of you|and so I'm a little tense...
{23252}{23305}and when I get like that|I get kind of...
{23307}{23367}I don't know.
{23367}{23429}It's very childish.|I'm sure I'll get over it soon.
{23432}{23468}Not too soon, I hope,|please...
{23468}{23528}because I like|a good fight myself.
{23530}{23583}- You do?|- Yes.
{23585}{23614}You sound surprised.
{23684}{23748}That's great.|You like a good fight. Great.
{23803}{23842}But?
{23863}{23916}When's the last time|you lost?
{23983}{24074}- I've been at Morland since 1925.|- It's beautiful here.
{24077}{24108}How old is it?
{24110}{24187}The college was founded|very nearly 500 years ago.
{24187}{24235}Not all the buildings|are that old, of course.
{24237}{24295}My room is there.|That's the new building.
{24295}{24372}- New, huh?|- 1733.
{24436}{24470}What does your husband do,|Mrs. Gresham?
{24472}{24530}Oh, Bill?|Bill's a writer.
{24532}{24616}Oh. And you too,|Jack tells me.
{24640}{24719}- You call him Jack?|- I never liked the name Clive.
{24755}{24815}Oh, well, if you're a Jack...
{24815}{24901}- What?|- No, you look fine for a Jack.
{24904}{24935}Thank you.
{24937}{25026}Well, Jewish, but not Jewish-Jewish,|if you can follow that.
{25029}{25124}I mean, I'm a Christian, but I was|brought up to be a good atheist.
{25127}{25199}- An atheist?|- Don't sound so shocked.
{25201}{25280}I'm not.|I was an atheist once.
{25283}{25357}You? So we're both|lapsed atheists?
{25359}{25436}Yes, but I was never|a Communist.
{25439}{25508}- Why not?|- What do you mean, "why not"?
{25510}{25616}Well, I mean, back in '38 it seemed|to me there was only two choices...
{25621}{25676}either you were a fascist|and you conquered the world...
{25678}{25738}or you were a Communist|and you saved it.
{25741}{25789}Is that so?
{25865}{25923}I must have been otherwise engaged|at the time.
{26007}{26060}Oh, there's a world|worth saving.
{26110}{26146}At dawn on the first of May...
{26148}{26275}the choristers from the choir school|stand here and sing to the rising sun.
{26280}{26318}They said they draw|quite a crowd.
{26321}{26369}Hmm. What do they sing?
{26369}{26417}Can't say I've ever risen|early enough to hear them.
{26419}{26486}Oh, why not?|I mean, it sounds wonderful.
{26489}{26553}Well, I don't really go in|for seeing the sights.
{26556}{26649}Oh. So what do you do,|just walk around with your eyes shut?
{26707}{26755}You know, Mrs. Gresham...
{26757}{26810}I almost don't know|what to say to you.
{26812}{26863}Good Lord.
{26865}{26911}How long do you plan|to stay in England?
{26913}{26959}Till the end of December.
{26961}{27040}- Are you expected to be in Oxford again?|- I hadn't planned on it.
{27043}{27122}What do you say? Do you think we could|rise to a pot of homebrewed tea?
{27124}{27174}- I can manage that.|- Given early warning, of course.
{27213}{27258}Do you think|I could bring my son?
{27261}{27335}Douglas is such a big fan of your|Narnia books, he'd love to meet you.
{27337}{27431}- Yes, of course.|- I'll give you plenty of warning.
{27465}{27532}It was a pleasure meeting you.|Thanks for everything.
{27534}{27606}- Well, see you soon.|- Yes. Major.
{27783}{27839}Does one wait|for the train to leave?
{27841}{27901}I don't know.
{27925}{28004}Character and thought...|chicken and egg.
{28006}{28052}Which comes first?
{28131}{28227}Aristotle's solution|was simple and radical.
{28304}{28364}He said, "Plot is character.
{28366}{28438}Forget psychology.|Forget the inside of men's heads.
{28440}{28500}Judge them by their actions."
{28543}{28589}For example,|Mr. Whistler is asleep.
{28589}{28709}Now, from that action, I take it that he|has no interest in what I have to say.
{28711}{28795}The puzzle is, that being the case,|why is he here at all?
{28798}{28886}So, we construct a plot|from Mr. Whistler's actions.
{28889}{28956}He comes, he sleeps.
{28956}{29052}Now, Aristotle would say|that the next question is not why...
{29059}{29121}but what is Mr. Whistler|going to do next?
{29260}{29313}Good morning, Mr. Whistler.
{29351}{29440}My class is not compulsory,|neither are my chairs very comfortable.
{29440}{29493}- I suggest...|- All right. I'm going.
{29514}{29560}Thank you.
{29651}{29730}He comes, he sleeps,|he goes.
{29733}{29778}So the plot thickens.
{30234}{30322}It's all right, Warnie. She sails|back to New York after Christmas.
{30325}{30399}One can always be so much more friendly|to people who can't stay long.
{30428}{30500}I wonder what her husband thinks of her|gallivanting around England like this.
{30521}{30574}- It's not the Middle Ages, Warnie.|- She'll make you listen...
{30577}{30627}to one of her poems,|I'll bet you ten bob.
{30627}{30675}Then she'll say to you,|"How do you like it, Mr. Lewis?"
{30675}{30716}And you'll be stumped.
{30718}{30812}I shall say, "Mrs. Gresham,|only you could have written that."
{30814}{30836}Blast!
{30996}{31068}- That'll be one and nine pence, madam.|- Keep the change.
{31224}{31274}Hello. You must be Douglas.
{31277}{31361}- Are you him?|- No. I'm his brother.
{31385}{31425}So you found us.
{31428}{31481}- Well, the driver did.|- Come in.
{31564}{31612}Here we are.
{31615}{31658}There we are.
{31725}{31780}That's him.|Do go in.
{31811}{31859}Here you are, then.
{31862}{31910}- Hello.|- Good.
{31912}{31974}- Hello. Sorry. My hands are...|- We really appreciate this.
{31977}{32051}You've no idea how Douglas|was looking forward to today.
{32054}{32099}So you're Douglas.
{32142}{32238}Ask him. I told him you would write|in his Narnia book.
{32245}{32315}- Do you mind?|- No, of course not.
{32317}{32356}Yes.
{32396}{32459}Yes. "To Douglas," yes?
{32485}{32516}Douglas. Yes.
{32706}{32792}He wants to know if you have an attic.|You can ask him these things.
{32794}{32840}We do.
{32926}{32981}What does it say, honey?
{32984}{33094}- "The magic never ends."|- Well, if it does, sue him.
{33147}{33219}Thank you, Mrs. Young.|Thank you.
{33221}{33291}I'd sure like to see|the attic.
{33293}{33353}Then you shall.
{33355}{33401}Come along, young man.|Let's go and find it.
{33403}{33449}Thank you, Major Lewis.
{33475}{33583}Oh. Jack was particularly hoping|that you'd introduce him to your poetry.
{33679}{33744}Now I've got to find|the key.
{33746}{33842}Don't worry. I don't inflict my poems|on innocent strangers.
{33847}{33895}We're not strangers,|I hope.
{33972}{34027}What about some of that|long-promised tea?
{34029}{34077}Yes, please.
{34077}{34161}- You take milk, don't you?|- Yes.
{34185}{34252}No, I'd be interested|to know about your poems.
{34295}{34348}What do you want to know|about them?
{34348}{34420}How long they are?|Their rhyme schemes?
{34420}{34478}- Their major influences?|- Quite right, of course.
{34480}{34523}- Take sugar?|- Sure.
{34561}{34619}No, you're quite right.
{34621}{34717}Well, would you be so kind as to|introduce me to the poems themselves?
{34753}{34811}I'm not sure.
{34813}{34880}I won't be rude about them.
{34883}{34979}What will you do?|Stay silent or tell lies?
{34981}{35043}I shall choose|when I've heard one.
{35046}{35175}All right. I have won a national|poetry award shared with Robert Frost.
{35175}{35223}I'm impressed.
{35223}{35333}Well, let's hope you stay that way.|Let's get this out of the way.
{35336}{35396}I'll give you an early one.|That way I'm covered.
{35398}{35477}I wrote this when I was 22.|Spanish Civil War.
{35480}{35544}It's called "Snow in Madrid."
{35547}{35612}"Softly, so casual.
{35614}{35686}Lovely, so light, so light.
{35688}{35799}The cruel sky lets fall something|one does not fight.
{35801}{35866}Men, while perishing..."
{35868}{35902}Sorry.
{35969}{36072}"Men, before perishing|see with unwounded eye for once...
{36074}{36132}a gentle thing|fall from the sky."
{36216}{36276}- Oh, embarrassed, huh?|- No, I'm touched.
{36307}{36360}- Touched.|- Yes.
{36381}{36477}Touched... that's good.|That's about its level.
{36477}{36571}So you may ask when was I ever|in Madrid. The answer is never.
{36573}{36645}- Personal experience isn't everything.|- I disagree.
{36647}{36714}I think personal experience|is everything.
{36717}{36777}So reading is a waste of time?
{36813}{36909}No, it's not a waste of time,|but reading is safe, isn't it?
{36911}{36966}Books aren't about to hurt you.
{36969}{37079}- Why should one want to be hurt?|- That's when we learn.
{37081}{37177}Just because something hurts doesn't|make it more true or significant.
{37211}{37264}No, I guess not.
{37266}{37295}I'm not saying that pain is...
{37297}{37424}purposeless or even neutral,|but to find meaning in pain...
{37424}{37479}There has to be something else.
{37482}{37530}Pain is a tool.
{37532}{37609}- If you like, pain is God's...|- Megaphone to rouse a deaf world.
{37674}{37733}Oh, how embarrassing.
{37736}{37791}You know my writing too well,|don't you?
{37791}{37832}I have read most of it.
{37834}{37899}I guess I knew you pretty well|before we met.
{37964}{38019}But you'd not had|the personal experience.
{38098}{38153}Mr. Lewis, l...
{38155}{38208}I have to stop|calling you "Mr. Lewis."
{38211}{38314}It makes me feel like a kid.|Can I call you Jack?
{38316}{38366}Yes. Of course.
{38371}{38436}Jack, I'm Joy.
{38491}{38539}Well, hello, Joy.
{38630}{38676}So, Jack...
{38719}{38793}have you ever been really hurt?
{38848}{38901}You don't give up, do you?
{38903}{38949}Here we are.
{39503}{39560}Does anybody|ever come up here?
{39596}{39642}Not anymore.
{39975}{40023}Come in.
{40028}{40086}Here we are.|That's Warnie's desk.
{40088}{40136}This is mine.
{40138}{40191}It's not very orderly in here,|I'm afraid.
{40193}{40246}Well, you keep order|in your mind, right?
{40249}{40292}Yes.
{40294}{40344}Oh, that's nice.
{40347}{40392}Is it someplace real?
{40395}{40474}I think so. It's called|the Golden Valley, I believe.
{40476}{40551}- Somewhere in Herefordshire.|- Somewhere special?
{40553}{40649}In a way. It was on our nursery wall|when I was a child.
{40654}{40709}I didn't know|it was a real place then.
{40711}{40783}I thought it was a view|of heaven.
{40783}{40831}Oh, the promised land.
{40896}{40977}I used to think that one day|I'd come around a bend in the road...
{40980}{41045}or over the brow of a hill,|and there it would be.
{41232}{41325}I have been really hurt.|You know?
{41327}{41380}First time is always the worst.
{41383}{41440}That was when my mother died.
{41443}{41505}- How old were you?|- Nine.
{41507}{41579}- That's old enough to hurt.|- Oh, yes.
{41584}{41654}It was the end|of my world.
{41656}{41711}I remember my father in tears...
{41713}{41776}voices all over the house...
{41778}{41831}doors shutting and opening.
{41833}{41915}It was a big house,|all long, empty corridors.
{41915}{42001}I remember I had toothache,|and I wanted my mother to come to me.
{42004}{42061}I cried for her to come,|but she didn't come.
{42092}{42215}And after death,|did you believe you'd meet her again?
{42272}{42344}I don't think I had any faith|in anything when I was a child.
{42344}{42392}She was gone,|that was all.
{42442}{42519}And still you listen for the footsteps|coming down the corridors.
{42550}{42598}But they don't come.
{42658}{42711}Yes.
{42824}{42884}- You should see the garden before dark.|- Yes, I'd like that.
{42886}{42970}- You'll need a coat.|- I have one right here.
{43047}{43128}- There's a lake! A wood with a lake!|- Oh, good.
{43128}{43198}It's really a flooded clay pit|for the old brick works.
{43200}{43291}- He's all yours now.|- Be careful, Douglas.
{43291}{43356}The sun's well over the yardarm.
{43421}{43466}- Does he miss home?|- Oh, sure.
{43469}{43526}I mean, he'd like to be home|for Christmas...
{43528}{43622}but, well, it just hasn't|worked out that way.
{43622}{43670}What are you doing|for Christmas?
{43672}{43747}Some lucky English hotel,|I expect.
{43749}{43797}So your husband will have to look|after himself, is that it?
{43799}{43874}Yes. He's pretty good at that.
{43900}{43962}The lake is much older|than the house, of course.
{44003}{44068}They say Shelley used to sail|paper boats here.
{44104}{44173}Made out of early drafts|of his poems, no doubt.
{44262}{44315}I don't like to think of you|Christmassing in a hotel.
{44317}{44358}Why don't you come here?
{44358}{44406}You're very welcome.
{44408}{44504}You don't want a couple of yankees|rampaging all over your house.
{44504}{44583}I'd speak to Warnie,|of course, but...
{44586}{44646}Why don't we go inside.
{44701}{44758}Speaking for myself,|I'd welcome the company.
{44761}{44835}Somehow, Christmas makes more sense|when there are children around.
{44866}{44926}I suppose|we ought to get a tree.
{44929}{44974}What I really resent|is the presumption of good will.
{44977}{45041}I feel no good will toward|my fellow man whatever.
{45044}{45116}- I feel ill will.|- It'll be different this year...
{45118}{45202}More cheerful, I've no doubt.|A festive season.
{45204}{45298}I'm afraid Christmas, as I remember it,|is rather a lost cause.
{45300}{45377}- It's because we've lost the magic.|- No more blasted magic.
{45379}{45475}Well, you tell people it's about|taking care of the poor and needy...
{45478}{45523}and naturally|they don't even miss it.
{45526}{45581}The needy do come into it.
{45583}{45655}"No room at the inn," remember?|The mother and child?
{45658}{45717}Jack's invited them|to stay with us.
{45720}{45768}Who?
{45770}{45830}Mother and child.
{45938}{45991}Mrs. Gresham and her son...
{45993}{46039}They're spending Christmas|with us.
{46041}{46127}Well, Jack, you have succeeded|in surprising me.
{46130}{46185}Who is Mrs. Gresham?
{46204}{46269}Oh, she's just a friend,|an American.
{46271}{46324}A writer.
{46384}{46461}People do have guests|for Christmas, don't they?
{46655}{46700}Hello, Jack.|Happy Christmas.
{46885}{46911}Oxford.
{46957}{47000}This is Oxford station.
{47180}{47240}Nice talking to you.|Have a good trip and a merry Christmas.
{47245}{47290}- Merry Christmas.|- Same to you too.
{47338}{47396}- No, Mom.|- Are you sure it's not too heavy?
{47422}{47485}Mom, why did those people|sing so loud on the train?
{47590}{47650}- Hello.|- Oh, I didn't know you were...
{47650}{47698}Look who's here, Douglas.
{47743}{47791}- Did you have a good journey?|- Yeah.
{47794}{47849}- Welcome back to Oxford.|- Thanks.
{47851}{47916}- We're glad you could come.|- Yeah.
{47918}{47964}Come this way.
{48091}{48139}Douglas, here.
{48257}{48304}And Joy...
{48348}{48393}here.
{48434}{48482}And...
{48578}{48623}bathroom here.
{48683}{48748}- Well, that's that, then.|- It's good.
{48748}{48815}Good. We'll leave you|to settle in.
{48815}{48880}Great. Why don't you|come with me, Douglas.
{48973}{49019}What do you think next, Warnie?|A nice cup of tea?
{49019}{49079}Well, you can't go too far wrong|with a cup of tea.
{49081}{49158}- Joy?|- Oh, thank you.
{49158}{49206}By the way.|The college president is hosting...
{49206}{49254}his annual Christmas party|this evening...
{49254}{49331}and I'm afraid I'm more or less obliged|to put in an appearance.
{49333}{49381}I don't suppose you'd wish|to come with me, would you?
{49422}{49460}With Douglas?
{49501}{49578}- Douglas?|- Thanks.
{49580}{49683}Jack, that's all right. I could use|an early night. You go on without us.
{49686}{49731}Oh, that's a pity.|I thought you'd rather enjoy it.
{49733}{49837}We could always ask Mrs. Young.|We won't be so very late.
{49839}{49887}I'll be okay.
{49944}{50009}Now I'm being thoughtless.|You've only just arrived.
{50105}{50153}Do you have your hot-water bottle?
{50153}{50237}Here it is,|in its very dainty cover.
{50237}{50290}All right.|Keep it close to you.
{50292}{50362}Why do you think|they don't heat the house?
{50364}{50422}Uh, oh, I don't know.
{50448}{50494}It's such a strange country...
{50496}{50570}but I think the natives|are friendly.
{50570}{50628}So, you finish your chapter|and say your prayers?
{50724}{50784}You have a big,|big kiss on your cheek.
{50784}{50841}- Good night.|- Night.
{50985}{51028}- Good evening, Major Lewis.|- Good evening, Roberts.
{51028}{51076}- Mr. Lew...|- Evening, Roberts.
{51527}{51594}Good evening.
{51688}{51757}Come and meet|the college professors.
{51903}{51982}- Where on Earth did he find her?|- She wrote to him.
{51985}{52030}Ah. A pen pal.
{52064}{52114}Hello.
{52117}{52184}Is this your first trip|to England, Mrs. Gresham?
{52184}{52280}Oh, yeah. It's my first, but I was|wanting to come for a long time.
{52280}{52347}- What brings you to England?|- I'm working on a book...
{52349}{52409}so I was hoping to find|a publisher over here.
{52409}{52450}Christopher, there you are.
{52484}{52529}Yes, Jack, here I am.
{52553}{52611}Please let me introduce you|to Mrs. Joy Gresham.
{52613}{52671}- Professor Christopher Riley.|- Professor Riley.
{52673}{52735}- How do you do?|- Pleasure.
{52778}{52858}What success have you had...|with your book?
{52860}{52925}To be honest,|it's not ready to be seen yet.
{52927}{52982}You mustn't let that stop you,|Mrs. Gresham.
{52985}{53033}It doesn't stop Jack.
{53033}{53064}I'm sorry?
{53066}{53145}I am right in assuming you're|from the United States of America?
{53148}{53203}- Yes, I am.|- Perhaps you can satisfy...
{53205}{53246}my curiosity on a related matter.
{53248}{53332}I had always understood Americans|to be hard-riding, tough-talking...
{53332}{53395}no-nonsense sort of people,|yet Jack tells me...
{53397}{53464}his children's stories|sell very well there.
{53469}{53558}- Who can be buying them?|- Well, Professor Riley...
{53560}{53620}we're not all cowboys.
{53622}{53675}Have you read|any of Jack's children's books?
{53678}{53754}Jack has read extracts|aloud to me.
{53754}{53812}It is one of his|tests of friendship.
{53814}{53867}I think they're rather magical.
{53867}{53932}Congratulations, Jack.|You seem to have found a soul mate.
{53932}{54001}I thought you believed|we didn't have souls, Christopher.
{54025}{54150}Well, yes. Now, I regard the soul|as an essentially feminine accessory...
{54152}{54243}anima quite different from animus,|the male variant.
{54248}{54351}This is how I explain the otherwise|puzzling difference between the sexes.
{54351}{54414}Where men have intellect...
{54416}{54478}women have soul.
{54481}{54519}As you say, Professor Riley...
{54519}{54557}uh, I'm from the United States...
{54560}{54625}and different cultures|have different modes of discourse.
{54627}{54740}I need a little guidance. Are you trying|to be offensive, or just merely stupid?
{54807}{54857}Let me introduce you|to some friends of mine.
{54860}{54896}Excuse me.|I'm sorry.
{57207}{57236}Hello.
{57312}{57377}It stood in our nursery|when we were children.
{57379}{57459}If you don't need it anymore|you should throw it away.
{57461}{57542}I'm not very good at throwing|things away, as you can see.
{57593}{57641}We don't have an attic|at home.
{57679}{57739}You wish you were at home,|don't you?
{57739}{57801}We always have a turkey|for Christmas at home.
{57825}{57871}Well, we'll have turkey here too.
{57873}{57912}With cranberry sauce?
{57914}{57996}- Ah.|- My dad loves cranberry sauce.
{57998}{58046}Does he?
{58048}{58080}And snow.
{58137}{58216}Who do you look like most, Douglas,|your mother or your father?
{58245}{58295}This is my mom...
{58298}{58343}and this is my dad.
{58374}{58449}But my dad's kind of noisy...
{58451}{58490}and I'm not.
{58492}{58545}Noisy in which way?
{58576}{58684}Like shouting.|I hate shouting.
{58686}{58741}Yeah, me too.
{58804}{58878}I knew it was|just a little wardrobe.
{59072}{59118}Mrs. Young...
{59120}{59202}we wouldn't happen to have|any cranberry sauce, would we?
{59204}{59283}Cranberry sauce?|What's that?
{59283}{59393}Well, my guess is it's a sauce,|made from cranberries.
{59427}{59523}Well, Mr. Lewis, if you can find me|some cranberries, I'll sauce 'em.
{59724}{59787}Well, I think Mrs. Young|has done us proud, Warnie.
{59873}{59916}Happy Christmas.
{59945}{60005}Want to raise a glass|to your husband, Joy?
{60005}{60060}- Sure. Here's to Bill.|- To Bill.
{60101}{60149}Can we telephone to America?
{60151}{60197}- Yes, I believe so. Do you want to?|- That's all right.
{60199}{60273}- We'll be home before long.|- You're very welcome, if you want.
{60276}{60362}- I do want.|- It's very expensive, Douglas.
{60362}{60444}- Oh, come on. I don't mind.|- He's excited by the novelty of it.
{60446}{60499}I am not.|I want to talk to Dad.
{60527}{60571}Well, you can't,|and that's that.
{60705}{60755}Beastly things, telephones.|Ring, ring, ring.
{60755}{60818}Stop what you're doing, get up,|hurry, hurry.
{60820}{60887}Ring, ring, ring.
{60887}{60928}No manners at all.
{61134}{61194}- All well?|- All well.
{61196}{61273}Douglas never makes a fuss|about going to bed.
{61273}{61343}It appears he never makes a fuss|about anything...
{61345}{61410}except telephones, perhaps.
{61412}{61460}Right. May I?
{61465}{61510}Yes, of course.
{61513}{61592}Warnie's taken himself|off to bed too.
{61594}{61652}Sometimes he overdoes it|a little.
{61652}{61707}- I expect you noticed.|- Yes.
{61736}{61810}- I know the signs.|- Oh, there are signs?
{61837}{61899}Good old Warnie.
{62093}{62139}You know, don't you?
{62175}{62203}Know what?
{62206}{62273}Well, you must not think|I'm much of a mother...
{62275}{62364}not letting her son call his father|on Christmas day.
{62364}{62414}Oh, that.|Well, it's none of my...
{62417}{62501}It just doesn't...|It's not...
{62501}{62549}It isn't what it looks like.
{62580}{62642}- I see.|- Thank you for not asking.
{62645}{62700}Not asking what?
{62700}{62786}What's this woman doing, chasing|all over England without her husband?
{62808}{62856}Ah, that.
{62939}{62985}I-I ran away.
{63021}{63067}It's always a mistake,|isn't it?
{63069}{63126}I mean, you have to face things|in the end.
{63232}{63321}I left home because Bill fell in love|with another woman.
{63369}{63417}He takes the romantic view...
{63419}{63467}If you love someone, you marry them.|I'm number two.
{63469}{63546}He wants me to give him a divorce|so he can marry number three.
{63630}{63690}I see.
{63786}{63834}Bill's an alcoholic.
{63860}{63908}He's compulsively unfaithful.
{63946}{64040}And he's sometimes violent, and I guess|I haven't loved him for years.
{64131}{64169}- He's violent?|- Only when he's drunk...
{64172}{64239}and he doesn't really know|what he's doing.
{64241}{64287}It's just that he's worn me out.
{64289}{64337}That's the truth of it.
{64376}{64431}Joy, look,|if there's anything I can do...
{64510}{64555}There is.
{64582}{64627}You can be my friend.
{64630}{64716}I hope I'm that already.
{64838}{64884}In you get, young man.
{64913}{64973}- I'll take that for you, sir.|- Well, good-bye, Warnie.
{64975}{65028}- Thanks for putting up with us.|- Not at all.
{65030}{65088}We shall miss you.
{65244}{65303}Good-bye, Joy.
{65778}{65838}So they sail back tomorrow?
{65838}{65886}Yes.
{65965}{66061}I'm not sure that God|particularly wants us to be happy.
{66066}{66119}I think He wants us|to be able to love...
{66121}{66169}and be loved.
{66169}{66217}Wants us to grow up.
{66279}{66332}We think our childish toys...
{66334}{66397}bring us all the happiness|there is...
{66399}{66493}and our nursery|is the whole wide world.
{66495}{66625}But something must drive us|out of the nursery...
{66627}{66697}to the world of others...
{66699}{66771}and that something is suffering.
{67296}{67363}You miss her, don't you?
{67442}{67488}Well, things are quieter now,|aren't they?
{67490}{67586}Yeah. I'm not much|of a talker.
{67588}{67670}One of your many virtues,|Warnie.
{67672}{67732}- She coming back?|- No.
{67996}{68063}- Thank you.|- Thank you so much.
{68066}{68118}- Ah. What's your name?|- James, sir.
{68224}{68272}- Here you are, James.|- Thank you, sir.
{68332}{68406}- Would you sign that for me, please?|- Yes.
{68511}{68564}Thank you.
{68727}{68804}I've always found this|a trying time of the year.
{68806}{68874}Trying?|To do what, Jack?
{68938}{69029}The leaves not yet out,|mud everywhere you go.
{69032}{69094}Frosty mornings gone.
{69094}{69142}Sunny mornings not yet come.
{69178}{69281}Give me blizzards and frozen pipes,|but not this nothing time.
{69310}{69401}Not this|waiting room of the world.
{69530}{69600}Tell me something, Christopher.|How shall I put this?
{69653}{69698}Would you say|you were content?
{69701}{69765}I am as I am.
{69768}{69813}The world is as it is.
{69847}{69936}My contentment or otherwise|has very little to do with it.
{69984}{70058}Don't you ever feel|a sense of waste?
{70101}{70147}Of course.
{70240}{70286}Good evening.
{70746}{70792}I hope you don't mind.
{70794}{70849}May I come in?
{70849}{70897}Yeah.
{71158}{71242}I happened to be in Blackwell's|the other day...
{71247}{71298}and I saw you borrow a book.
{71300}{71405}No, steal. I stole it.|Most of these books are stolen.
{71408}{71453}They're written to be read.|At least I read them...
{71456}{71513}which is more|than most people do.
{71556}{71633}So you read differently|to the rest of us, do you?
{71636}{71693}Yes, I do.
{71696}{71743}I read at night.
{71746}{71820}It's the only thing breaks me|concentration. All night sometimes.
{71895}{72000}When I start a new book|my hands are shaking.
{72002}{72072}My eyes are jumping ahead...|Does he feel the way I felt?
{72077}{72158}Does he see|what I've seen?
{72206}{72276}You know, my father used to say...|He was a teacher like you.
{72276}{72326}Well, not like you.
{72328}{72381}He was only|the village schoolmaster.
{72456}{72520}What was it your father|used to say?
{72597}{72671}"We read to know|we're not alone."
{72779}{72846}Would it help|if I made you a small loan?
{72849}{72930}Yes, I expect it would,|if I wanted to be helped.
{72959}{73007}I see. Good-bye.
{73144}{73204}You see, we are like|blocks of stone...
{73206}{73300}out of which the sculptor|carves the forms of men.
{73302}{73410}The blows of His chisel,|which hurt us so much...
{73412}{73458}are what make us perfect.
{73518}{73563}Thank you very much.|Thank you.
{73654}{73707}Mr. Lewis, what can I say?
{73841}{73913}Mr. Lewis,|I didn't want to bother you.
{73916}{73964}Congratulations.
{73964}{74031}- Wonderful piece.|- Mr. Lewis, I'm from Ohio.
{74033}{74079}Ohio? Oh, yes. How nice.
{74081}{74163}I'll go on ahead.|You'll join us, won't you?
{74165}{74201}Yes. Do. Thank you.
{74479}{74537}Marvelous speech.|Thank you.
{74553}{74599}Hello, Jack.
{74630}{74709}- What are you doing here?|- I came to hear your talk.
{74712}{74772}- Oh, yes, but...|- What am I doing in London?
{74774}{74820}Well, Douglas and I|live here now.
{74820}{74892}- Really?|- What did I do with Bill?
{74894}{74999}We're divorced, but it's going|to work out better for all of us.
{75026}{75105}Yes.|Why didn't you write?
{75107}{75167}What for?|To ask permission?
{75170}{75234}- No.|- Do you mind?
{75237}{75282}Me? No.|Why should I mind?
{75285}{75347}Oh. So it's all|all right then?
{75349}{75395}Yes.
{75397}{75448}But, um...
{75450}{75539}I really am very, very surprised|to see you here, you know.
{75541}{75616}Well, I wasn't dead.|I was just in America.
{75618}{75647}Of course. Yes.
{75676}{75779}Yes, but, um, you see, l...
{75781}{75860}I've been thinking about you.|Yes. I've been thinking about you.
{75863}{75915}- Can I be of any assistance?|- No, it's all right.
{75918}{75963}I'm just talking|to my friend.
{75990}{76059}Yes, I was...
{76059}{76155}I was thinking about you,|and suddenly there you were.
{76160}{76239}No, here I am.|It's present tense.
{76239}{76289}- Present and tense.|- I'm very sorry...
{76292}{76359}but the committee is waiting|to entertain Mr. Lewis.
{76361}{76428}It's all right.|I'll be with you in a moment.
{76450}{76536}So. Do let me know|where you are.
{76603}{76649}Sure.
{76651}{76709}Good. Bye.
{76829}{76886}I do hope|I did the right thing.
{76891}{76963}We're just in here.
{77136}{77220}So, she's settled here|for good, has she?
{77222}{77287}For the foreseeable future.
{77289}{77349}- With the boy?|- Yes.
{77373}{77414}Will you be seeing|much of her?
{77455}{77591}Not much, I shouldn't think. I may|look in again when I'm next in London.
{78054}{78109}It's very sweet of you|to come and see me again, Jack.
{78109}{78179}- I know how busy you are.|- No, not at all.
{78181}{78239}I look forward|to my outings to London.
{78241}{78289}You must come and visit us|in Oxford.
{78291}{78363}- Would you like some sherry?|- Oh, yes.
{78366}{78438}Yes. Maybe as soon|as Douglas's school term ends.
{78469}{78543}- Here you go.|- Thank you.
{78579}{78644}I would like|to see Warnie again.
{78644}{78711}You can just move Douglas's puzzle|out of the way.
{78711}{78783}- All right.|- Do remember me to Warnie.
{78783}{78852}Tell him I promise|I won't turn into a nuisance.
{78879}{78924}Why should you|turn into a nuisance?
{78927}{78989}Well, Jack,|I don't have to explain.
{78991}{79037}Explain what?
{79063}{79133}- And why did you look at me like that?|- Like what?
{79135}{79202}As if I'm lying to you.|I mean what I say.
{79205}{79310}No, I know. It's just that|you don't say it all, do you?
{79310}{79368}Well, one can't say it all.|It would take too long.
{79430}{79507}- Did you finish your chapter?|- Almost.
{79545}{79622}- Not yet.|- All right. Just a little bit longer.
{79624}{79699}- Just till your hair dries.|- Okay. Night, Jack.
{79701}{79763}- Good night, Douglas.|- Wait. I want a kiss.
{79871}{79919}- Night, night.|- Good night, Mom.
{79919}{79979}Sweet dreams.
{79982}{80030}I'm gonna check|the supper.
{80279}{80372}What sort of things|do you want me to say?
{80375}{80437}Well, Jack, I want to remain|friends with you...
{80440}{80528}so I need to know if there's anything|that makes that hard for you.
{80528}{80574}Oh, I see.
{80576}{80641}We might as well know|where we are.
{80643}{80739}Never can really tell what's going on|between people, can you?
{80746}{80792}People jump to conclusions.
{80797}{80838}Sometimes it makes me quite angry,|the way people...
{80840}{80909}aren't allowed to be,|you know, just friends.
{80912}{80948}Like us, you mean.
{80950}{81046}Like us. I don't mean to say|that friendship is a small thing.
{81051}{81137}As a matter of fact, I rate it as|one of life's most precious gifts.
{81140}{81171}But?
{81200}{81248}But it shouldn't be turned into|a watered-down version...
{81250}{81288}of something it is not.
{81291}{81377}- Such as?|- Such as...
{81379}{81475}Well, to give you one example,|romantic love.
{81478}{81530}That's not to say|that friendship isn't, in its way...
{81533}{81578}A kind of love.
{81581}{81674}- See? I knew you'd understand.|- I understand more than that.
{81679}{81741}- Could you open this?|- Yeah.
{81782}{81859}You're a bachelor|and I'm a divorced woman.
{81859}{81967}Some people would imagine that you have|romantic intentions towards me.
{81969}{82051}You have no such intentions,|and you want that out in the open...
{82053}{82125}because you care about me|and you don't want me to be hurt.
{82125}{82185}Have I understood you correctly?
{82223}{82276}- I don't know what to say.|- You don't have to say anything.
{82279}{82343}I just said it.|Wasn't so hard, was it?
{82346}{82415}I'm just not used to this...|whatever it is.
{82415}{82473}Naming names, that's all.
{82475}{82528}Yes.
{82530}{82607}Now you don't have to be|afraid of me anymore, do you?
{82609}{82667}Good Lord. I was never|afraid of you.
{82717}{82782}Why are you looking...|I was never afraid of you.
{82823}{82873}Jack...
{82876}{82986}I really am very thankful|for everything you've done for me.
{83067}{83149}I'm sure there are more|substantial ways I could be of help...
{83151}{83197}that you're|not telling me about.
{83199}{83257}I don't want to exhaust|your good will.
{83259}{83305}There's no fear of that.
{83348}{83432}There is something|which would help me enormously.
{83434}{83504}I find it...|Oh, Jack.
{83506}{83571}This is very hard for me.
{83573}{83640}If it's too much for you,|you would just say no, wouldn't you?
{83643}{83748}Just no. I mean, no guilt,|evasion, no running away.
{83784}{83866}Yes, I think I could|just about manage that.
{84379}{84432}Something I ought|to tell you, Warnie.
{84432}{84520}- Mm-hmm?|- Yeah.
{84523}{84568}Um...
{84645}{84707}I've agreed to marry Joy.
{84863}{84942}- You have?|- Mm-hmm.
{84945}{85002}Seemed the right thing to do.
{85031}{85084}It did?
{85084}{85151}Yes. There's nothing|to worry about.
{85170}{85249}See, what I've agreed to do is extend|my British citizenship to her...
{85252}{85311}so that she can go on|living in England.
{85314}{85388}- By marrying her?|- Yeah. Only technically.
{85431}{85491}You're marrying Joy technically?
{85494}{85554}Hmm. Well, a true marriage...
{85556}{85659}is a declaration before God,|not before some government official.
{85662}{85769}Joy will keep her own name, and we'll|all go on living exactly as before.
{85822}{85882}Before you are joined|in matrimony...
{85882}{85973}I have to remind you of the solemn|and binding character...
{85973}{86045}of the vows|you are about to make.
{86048}{86127}Now, Mr. Lewis,|you'll repeat after me.
{86129}{86184}"I call upon these persons|here present...
{86249}{86314}to witness that I,|Clive Staples Lewis...
{86378}{86436}do take thee,|Helen Joy Gresham...
{86479}{86529}to be my lawful wedded wife."
{86580}{86654}Joy Gresham,|if you'll repeat after me.
{86654}{86709}"I call upon these persons|here present...
{86772}{86827}to witness that I,|Helen Joy Gresham...
{86892}{86947}do take thee,|Clive Staples Lewis...
{87009}{87055}to be my lawful wedded husband."
{87138}{87179}Do we have a ring?
{87182}{87215}- No.|- No.
{87337}{87407}- Well, that's that.|- Can I buy you both a drink?
{87409}{87484}Sorry, Joy. I simply|have to catch the 12:22.
{87486}{87539}- Well, then off you go, Jack.|- Bye, Warnie.
{87541}{87587}- Bye, Jack.|- Bye, Joy.
{87654}{87707}I'll be most grateful|for that drink, Joy.
{87709}{87755}That's awfully kind|of you, Warnie.
{87757}{87815}I think I saw a pub just down the road.|Shall we risk it?
{87815}{87879}All right.
{87882}{87927}- Go.|- Here we go.
{87930}{87975}Dear heaven.
{88102}{88172}Well, that was quite|an unusual experience.
{88174}{88239}Yes. You must forgive Jack.
{88277}{88344}Oh, I'm getting to know him|a little by now.
{88347}{88395}I think|I understand him better.
{88397}{88445}Anyway, I'm very grateful|to him.
{88448}{88496}Nobody's to know,|he tells me.
{88496}{88613}Well, actually, what he said was,|it will be as if it never happened.
{88678}{88759}A great mistake, Jack.|You'll live to regret it.
{88759}{88807}Regret what, Chris?
{88807}{88872}Staying in this godforsaken place|all summer.
{88874}{88951}- Day after Encaenia, I'm off.|- Where, Chris?
{88951}{89021}- Tuscany. Where else?|- Where else indeed.
{89023}{89083}- Have some cheese.|- We're going to the Loire...
{89085}{89133}camping.
{89136}{89179}Camping?
{89181}{89246}- Think I'll bring a guest this year.|- Do, by all means.
{89246}{89325}When Laura was alive, we once|took the grandchildren camping.
{89325}{89385}- Bring a guest, Jack?|- Yes.
{89385}{89440}- Encaenia.|- Take my tip.
{89443}{89529}Sleep outside the tent|and smoke a cigar.
{89531}{89570}- Whatever for?|- Mosquitoes.
{89572}{89644}You've met her.|Joy Gresham.
{89649}{89713}- Yes, of course.|- Not the American.
{89716}{89819}- Yes. The American.|- Is she back in Oxford?
{89819}{89867}Thank you.|No, no.
{89869}{89922}No, she's in London.
{89924}{89984}She wants to see the pageant|of learning.
{92020}{92073}I feel distinctly under dressed.
{92075}{92142}This is just|a sort of uniform, really.
{92145}{92217}Jack's party frock.
{92291}{92339}Jack, come here.
{92341}{92418}- Come here.|- What?
{92468}{92535}- Is there?|- Yeah. I got it. It's all right.
{92569}{92636}- If you feel like a stroll later...|- Are these two places free?
{92636}{92696}- Yes. Please do.|- Let me give you a hand.
{92746}{92814}- She's living in London now?|- Yes.
{92814}{92895}- With her husband?|- No, no, no. They're divorced.
{92895}{92962}Why did I have a feeling|you were going to say that?
{92962}{93003}- Hello, Warnie.|- Hello.
{93003}{93070}- You all right?|- I'm just a little exhausted.
{93070}{93142}- Would it be all right if we sat down?|- Yes.
{93142}{93207}You haven't seen my rooms yet.|Let me show you.
{93221}{93267}Tired?
{93288}{93336}- Would you like coffee?|- Yes.
{93336}{93408}- Nescafe?|- Sure.
{94077}{94139}Oh, there. That's better.|Much better.
{94216}{94269}Perhaps you should change|those shoes.
{94295}{94360}I won't talk about that.
{94360}{94408}I'm not going|to stay long either.
{94408}{94480}For all I know,|I'm not even allowed to be here.
{94480}{94559}Female guests are permitted|between 10:00 a.m. And 8:00 p.m.
{94595}{94631}We're legal.
{94705}{94799}Jack, don't you sometimes just bust|to share the joke?
{94799}{94868}- What joke?|- Well, here's your friends...
{94868}{94928}thinking we're unmarried,|and up to all sorts of wickedness...
{94928}{95024}when all along we're married|and up to nothing at all.
{95072}{95127}Which friends?
{95127}{95202}You really can be hard work sometimes.
{95348}{95403}So, what do you do here?
{95403}{95468}Think great thoughts?
{95468}{95506}Teach, mainly.
{95506}{95595}What do they do, sit at your feet|and gaze up at you in awe?
{95595}{95640}No, not at all.
{95672}{95715}I bet they do.
{95748}{95837}We have some fine old battles in here,|I can tell you that.
{95837}{95892}Which you win.
{96019}{96072}Must be quite a boost for you,|being older...
{96072}{96129}and wiser than all of them.
{96182}{96230}Not to mention your readers.
{96230}{96278}What?
{96278}{96384}Your readers.|Oh. That gang of friends of yours...
{96384}{96458}all very well trained|not to play out of bounds.
{96458}{96530}- What are you talking about?|- And of course there's Warnie.
{96530}{96587}Not much competition there.
{96587}{96616}That's nonsense.
{96616}{96700}What about Christopher Riley?|He never lets me get away with anything.
{96700}{96777}- You know that.|- Except doubt and...
{96777}{96844}fear and pain and terror.
{96882}{96966}- Where did all that come from?|- I've only now just seen it.
{96966}{97100}How you've arranged a life for yourself|where no one can touch you.
{97100}{97180}Everyone that's close to you|is either younger than you...
{97180}{97276}or weaker than you,|or under your control.
{97283}{97393}Why are you getting at me?|I thought we were friends.
{97419}{97475}I don't know|that we are friends.
{97496}{97554}Not the way|you have friends, anyway.
{97580}{97657}- Sorry, Jack.|- I don't understand.
{97657}{97707}Oh, I think you do.
{97707}{97755}You just don't like it.
{97755}{97805}Nor do I.
{98748}{98796}Whistler.
{98985}{99040}Go? Go where?
{99040}{99100}- London.|- But why?
{99100}{99148}Is it money?
{99148}{99196}Not really.
{99196}{99244}One more year|and you'd have your degree.
{99244}{99297}Yeah, then what?|Teach, like you?
{99354}{99414}I wonder what it is|everyone wants from me.
{99460}{99510}You asked the first question I've ever|heard you ask that sounds like...
{99510}{99589}you don't know the answer.
{99589}{99637}Is that good?|Is that what you want?
{99637}{99700}Ignorance? Confusion?
{99700}{99827}I just don't think I see my way ahead|quite as clearly as you do.
{99827}{99879}Shadows.
{99879}{99932}What?
{99932}{99980}It's one of my stories.
{99980}{100050}We live in the shadowlands.
{100050}{100114}Sun is always shining|somewhere else...
{100114}{100167}around a bend in the road...
{100167}{100232}over the brow of a hill.
{100555}{100608}Hello.|A London number, please.
{101104}{101236}Yesterday, a friend of mine,|a very brave...
{101236}{101308}good woman...
{101308}{101371}collapsed in terrible pain.
{101371}{101457}One minute|she was fit and well...
{101457}{101512}next minute she was in agony.
{101512}{101608}She's now in hospital,|and this morning I was told she's...
{101642}{101687}suffering from cancer.
{101725}{101764}Why?
{101790}{101867}See, if you love someone,|you don't want them to suffer.
{101867}{101908}You can't bear it.
{101908}{102001}You want to take their suffering|onto yourself.
{102001}{102049}If even I feel like that...
{102080}{102133}why doesn't God?
{102212}{102272}- How is she?|- Not good.
{102382}{102430}I'm so sorry, Jack.
{102471}{102524}I just want her to be well again,|you see.
{102524}{102579}Of course you do.
{102579}{102644}We all do.
{102644}{102723}What a dangerous world|we live in.
{102723}{102797}You've been up all night.|Why don't you get some sleep?
{102797}{102857}No. I can't sleep.
{102907}{103001}It's all too soon, you see.|I just haven't had time, that's all.
{103001}{103049}Time for what?
{103049}{103159}I don't know.|Talk, say things.
{103248}{103301}It doesn't take long.
{103301}{103375}No, I suppose not.
{103409}{103461}Whatever it is,|I should just say it.
{103533}{103605}Yes. You must be right, Warnie.
{103605}{103660}But it is difficult,|you see.
{103680}{103727}Yes, I do see that.
{103802}{103862}- Mr. Lewis.|- Dr. Craig, this is my brother Warnie.
{103862}{103902}How do you do?
{103902}{103965}- Your wife.|- How is she? Any change?
{104015}{104085}We've made her as comfortable|as we can.
{104085}{104140}Otherwise, there's nothing further|to report.
{104140}{104217}How much has she been told?
{104217}{104310}She's been told that the cancer|has eaten away her left femur.
{104339}{104418}- Oh, no.|- She knows it's serious.
{104418}{104466}The thigh bone snapped|like a frozen twig.
{104466}{104547}- I see.|- Can anything be done?
{104547}{104619}She's dying, Warnie.
{104619}{104703}That's putting it more starkly|than I would choose, Mr. Lewis.
{104703}{104751}No. But it's true,|isn't it?
{104799}{104854}The cancer is very advanced.
{105159}{105204}Don't talk if it hurts.
{105264}{105346}- Where's Douglas?|- He's staying with us for the moment.
{105346}{105435}I'll bring him over to see you|when... when you're up to it.
{105435}{105473}Thank you.
{105516}{105576}Do you have any water?
{105576}{105612}Mm-hmm.
{105698}{105782}Were you here to visit me before?
{105782}{105818}A couple of times.
{105847}{105893}I thought so.
{105976}{106003}Here.
{106221}{106329}Sorry, Jack. I didn't mean|to cause you all this bother.
{106329}{106389}Don't talk nonsense.
{106389}{106461}You're the one|that's having the bother.
{106461}{106571}What I mean is,|you don't have to take care of me.
{106650}{106758}Well, who do you|expect to take care of you?
{106840}{106909}You know what|I'm trying to say.
{106909}{107015}But who else should take care of you|but me? You're my wife.
{107060}{107120}Yeah, technically.
{107120}{107192}And I shall look after you|technically.
{107396}{107480}Jack, I have to know how bad it is.|They won't tell me.
{107480}{107552}That's because|they're not sure themselves.
{107595}{107664}- Please.|- I don't know any more than they do.
{107719}{107789}Before Douglas gets here,|I need to know.
{107909}{107959}They say you're going to die.
{108038}{108103}Yes. Thank you.
{108312}{108362}What do you say?
{108362}{108482}I'm a Jew, I'm divorced,|I'm broke and I'm dying of cancer.
{108482}{108542}Do you think I get a discount?
{108988}{109043}Do you know something?
{109043}{109079}Mm-hmm.
{109134}{109254}You seem different.|You look at me properly now.
{109285}{109326}Didn't I before?
{109362}{109400}Not properly.
{109554}{109616}I don't want to lose you.
{109657}{109724}I don't want to be lost.
{109882}{109918}What?
{109942}{109971}Nurse?
{109971}{110036}Nurse? Nurse!
{110182}{110230}Is this pain really necessary?
{110259}{110333}- I'll fetch the doctor.|- Good.
{110563}{110669}There we are.|We'll make another one tomorrow.
{110669}{110719}Now what? Lights out?
{110719}{110786}- No, I read in bed.|- Got your book?
{110820}{110865}- Here.|- How long are you allowed to read?
{110865}{110978}- One chapter.|- One chapter then.
{110978}{111067}- I wanna be awake when Jack gets back.|- Well, that shouldn't be long now.
{111067}{111160}- He will say "good night," won't he?|- Of course. Night, night.
{111160}{111196}Night.
{111901}{111937}No change.
{111963}{112033}I promised Douglas|you'd say "good night."
{112937}{113033}She's in hospital in London.|Apparently he goes up there every day.
{113035}{113155}- It must have hit him very hard.|- It's thrown him off balance.
{113155}{113234}- A sad business.|- Has he said anything to you?
{113234}{113287}- About her?|- Mm.
{113287}{113325}Nothing.
{113680}{113752}- I'm so sorry about all this.|- Yes. Thank you.
{113927}{113999}It's all come too soon, you see?
{113999}{114056}Her affairs aren't in order, and...
{114100}{114195}what's going to happen to Douglas,|for example?
{114195}{114243}I suppose, his father?
{114289}{114339}She wouldn't want that.
{114339}{114435}'Cause he drinks, you know,|and he's an alcoholic.
{114464}{114512}Possibly other relatives?
{114610}{114670}I mean, it's not as if...
{114713}{114766}It's not as if what, Harry?
{114766}{114881}Well, she's your friend,|of course, but, well...
{114881}{114948}She's not family.
{115006}{115061}She's not my wife?
{115061}{115128}Of course not.
{115128}{115212}It's impossible.|It's unthinkable.
{115322}{115387}How could Joy have been my wife?
{115428}{115490}I'd have to love her,|wouldn't I?
{115543}{115651}I'd have to care|more for her than...
{115651}{115735}for anyone else in this world.
{115735}{115826}I'd have to be suffering|the torments of the damned.
{115826}{115891}The prospect of losing her...
{115996}{116066}I'm sorry, Jack.|I didn't know.
{116101}{116159}Nor did I, Harry.
{116272}{116384}It's growing in right here. See?|I got a new tooth.
{116384}{116447}That's great.|How 'bout that one on the bottom?
{116447}{116478}Remember?
{116478}{116547}Oh, yes.
{116651}{116766}Better take him home. I'll stay|a little longer, catch the 8:40.
{116766}{116802}Right.
{116833}{116888}May we come in?
{116888}{116945}Ever had toasted tea cakes, Douglas?
{116986}{117082}The secret's in the butter. You've gotta|have so much it runs down your fingers.
{117082}{117137}Should we go and find some?
{117178}{117252}Put that tooth under your pillow.
{117252}{117303}- See you soon.|- Bye.
{117303}{117389}Come on. The secret's in the butter.|You've gotta have lots. See you later.
{117389}{117420}Yes.
{117506}{117588}- Are you staying?|- Yes. For a while.
{117873}{117940}I want to marry you, Joy.
{117940}{118034}I want to marry you|before God and the world.
{118106}{118190}- Make an honest woman out of me?|- Not you.
{118190}{118257}It's me who hasn't been honest.
{118288}{118358}Look what it takes|to make me see sense.
{118418}{118461}You think I've overdone it?
{118504}{118554}Please don't leave me.
{118660}{118756}You know, back where I come from...
{118758}{118816}they have this quaint old custom...
{118871}{118993}Well, when a guy makes up his mind|to marry a girl, he asks her.
{118993}{119058}It's called a proposal.
{119058}{119106}It's the same here.
{119139}{119202}Did I miss it?
{119494}{119585}Will you marry this foolish,|frightened old man...
{119585}{119662}who needs you more than|he can bear to say...
{119691}{119808}who loves you|even though he hardly knows how.
{119902}{119954}Just this once.
{120302}{120369}We don't seem to have had|much time to talk.
{120417}{120458}I'm okay.
{120458}{120496}Yeah.
{120568}{120664}- Your mother and l...|- Why did we ever come to this country?
{120669}{120772}We were all right where we were.|I told Mom, but she wouldn't listen.
{120933}{121048}Does my dad know she's sick?|Did anybody tell him?
{121048}{121141}Yes. He's been told.
{121285}{121333}It's sinking now.
{121357}{121405}I don't care.
{121573}{121640}I know your mother has talked|to you about, um...
{121640}{121676}Yep.
{121724}{121779}Would that be all right with you?
{121805}{121844}Yep.
{121885}{122000}It would make me happy,|and I think it would make her happy too.
{122263}{122340}I, Joy, take thee, Jack...
{122340}{122407}"To have and to hold|from this day forward.
{122496}{122537}For better, for worse.
{122582}{122630}For richer, for poorer.
{122683}{122736}In sickness and in health.
{122798}{122884}To love, cherish and obey.
{122949}{123002}Till death us do part."
{123117}{123153}The ring.
{123407}{123472}"With this ring, I thee wed.
{123544}{123611}With my body, I thee worship.
{123700}{123795}And all my worldly goods,|I thee endow."
{124138}{124203}Those whom God|has joined together...
{124203}{124261}let no man put asunder.
{124292}{124313}Amen.
{126970}{127047}- Yes?|- It's Whistler.
{127047}{127099}Of course. Yes. How are you?
{127202}{127238}- Thank you.|- Thanks.
{127238}{127282}Funny the way things work out,|isn't it?
{127282}{127377}- I've not noticed that they do.|- You're probably right. Well...
{127466}{127538}- "Fight me. I can take it."|- What?
{127538}{127620}- "Fight me. I can take it." You...|- Did I say that?
{127620}{127658}Yeah.
{127694}{127749}What are you doing these days?
{127749}{127845}Teaching. Feel free|to give a hollow laugh.
{127855}{127924}No, I suspect you're a born teacher.
{127950}{128020}I do turn out|to be quite good at it.
{128020}{128051}Good.
{128087}{128135}- Your father's a teacher, isn't he?|- Yes.
{128135}{128217}- Aye.|- He died a few months ago.
{128243}{128291}I'm sorry.
{128291}{128339}I loved him very much.
{128411}{128456}Did he know that?
{128540}{128595}I think so.
{128595}{128679}- I think he knew.|- Yeah.
{128679}{128742}One has to say things.
{128742}{128828}The moment passes,|and then you're alone again.
{128828}{128866}Yes.
{128931}{129027}"We read to know we're not alone."
{129029}{129099}That's what he said,|wasn't it? Your father?
{129099}{129154}See, I haven't forgotten.
{129154}{129192}Well.
{129310}{129401}- Jack, what news?|- Good news, I think. Yes, good news.
{129401}{129480}- I'm very glad.|- Thank you, Christopher.
{129480}{129562}Christopher can scoff,|but I know how hard you've been praying.
{129590}{129686}And now God|is answering your prayer.
{129689}{129756}That's not why I pray.|I pray because I can't help myself.
{129756}{129816}I pray because I'm helpless.|I pray beca...
{129816}{129955}I pray because the need flows out of me|all the time, waking and sleeping.
{129996}{130058}It doesn't change God.|It changes me.
{130319}{130410}- Doctor, how is she?|- Well, I think you better see yourself.
{130410}{130482}- I'll catch you up, Sister.|- Right, sir.
{130641}{130679}Watch.
{130799}{130892}Well. Can you do more?
{130892}{130945}All right. Come close.
{131134}{131173}That's it.
{131235}{131305}- How'd I do?|- That's not bad.
{131305}{131401}That's wonderful.|Come and sit down. Whoo.
{131405}{131453}Wonderful.
{131497}{131578}- So, does she have to stay here?|- I see no reason why...
{131578}{131648}so long as the remission continues.
{131648}{131698}How long is that?
{131698}{131753}Come on. You can speak openly.
{131753}{131815}Could be months. Could be weeks.
{131815}{131873}Why not years?
{131873}{131969}In such an advanced case,|that would be unusual.
{131976}{132048}- Well, we take what we can get.|- Right.
{132048}{132115}How would you like to come home?
{132115}{132180}- Where is home?|- What do you mean, "Where's home?"
{132180}{132307}Oxford. My house. Our house.|We're married. Don't you remember?
{132307}{132384}- Let's go and take her home.|- Good.
{132384}{132448}Now, there's no need|to worry about me.
{132448}{132527}- I'll sort myself out.|- Sort yourself out? What do you mean?
{132527}{132595}- New digs. No problem.|- Do you want to?
{132595}{132662}- It's as you wish.|- I don't.
{132662}{132712}- Right you are.|- Then it's settled.
{133374}{133415}There.
{133623}{133664}Good night.
{133688}{133736}Ready, Jack.
{133832}{133913}Here we are. Take it slowly.
{133913}{133964}That's it.
{133964}{134014}All right?
{134014}{134091}- It's not far.|- Can we just sit down?
{134091}{134160}- I need a lot of pauses.|- All right.
{134263}{134314}Good. Up we go.
{134381}{134441}- Ow. That's okay.|- Right.
{134738}{134798}Thank you, my love.
{134798}{134844}What for?
{134884}{134925}For all of it.
{135038}{135134}- I think it's better if I lie down.|- Wee. Slowly.
{135263}{135311}- There.|- Good.
{135496}{135568}Yes, as I look at this room...
{135568}{135635}it strikes me it is|a bit on the spartan side.
{135666}{135783}- How long has it been your room?|- Twenty-five years.
{135783}{135839}More, I suppose.
{135839}{135910}Have you ever shared it|with anyone?
{135966}{136014}Feel strange?
{136064}{136155}Well, I'm not entirely sure|of the procedure.
{136155}{136249}Well, what do you usually do|when you go to bed, Jack?
{136249}{136311}- Very much what you'd expect.|- Tell me.
{136311}{136378}- So, you come in the door?|- Mm-hmm.
{136378}{136438}Then I draw the curtains.
{136618}{136680}Then I get out my pajamas.
{136680}{136766}- From where?|- Under the pillow.
{136793}{136836}And then what?
{136908}{137011}Then I hang my clothes|over the chair.
{137037}{137088}And I clean my teeth...
{137088}{137126}wash...
{137155}{137215}kneel by the bed.
{137215}{137337}Well, first I turn back the bedclothes,|and I kneel by the bed...
{137337}{137407}pray, and I get into bed.
{137438}{137510}- Like a little boy.|- Is it?
{137510}{137565}What next?
{137596}{137644}Then I go to sleep.
{137670}{137730}On your back or on your side?
{137769}{137817}On my side.
{137975}{138032}Show me.
{138474}{138557}You do everything just the way|you always do it.
{138557}{138663}When you get to the last bit,|I'll be here too.
{138663}{138723}That's the procedure.
{139610}{139670}What is the time? Let's see.
{139694}{139744}6:00 any minute now.
{139744}{139828}Well, is somebody gonna|ring a bell or something?
{139828}{139938}Yes, I believe a lot of people|ring a lot of bells.
{139938}{139986}But first, they sing.
{140013}{140078}All right? Good.
{140113}{140147}Look!
{141415}{141533}- Jump!|- Mad. They're really mad, all of them.
{141533}{141586}It's known as high spirits.
{141888}{141933}Admit you're glad|I brought you.
{141933}{142041}It's pagan, it's vulgar,|it's all faintly silly, but it works.
{142068}{142113}Sunrise always works.
{142343}{142415}You have to hold it down. So how'd you|want it to look? Like that, right?
{142415}{142463}- Yeah.|- So describe that.
{142463}{142504}- It's got lots of sunlight.|- Hello.
{142504}{142571}- Well, type it.|- Hello, Douglas.
{142571}{142631}Jack, where did you say|the Golden Valley was?
{142631}{142686}Somewhere in Herefordshire, I think.
{142686}{142739}- Your tea's ready.|- All right.
{142739}{142832}Remember what we talked about.|It's important. We'll finish this later.
{142919}{142955}Hello.
{143003}{143099}- Where did you say it was?|- Herefordshire, I believe.
{143099}{143161}And do you think|it still looks the same?
{143161}{143209}Oh, I very much doubt it.
{143238}{143300}You thought it was heaven?
{143300}{143365}I was only a child.
{143432}{143477}Let's look for it.
{143511}{143568}We never had a honeymoon.
{143568}{143648}- Are you up to traveling?|- It's not so far, is it?
{143676}{143765}I don't really know.|Where would we stay?
{143794}{143866}I don't know.|Small country hotel?
{144017}{144072}- You happy?|- Yes.
{144072}{144158}- What kind of happy?|- Just happy.
{144271}{144355}- You know my kind of happy?|- How stupid.
{144355}{144446}I forget. When you ask a question,|it means you have the answer waiting.
{144446}{144494}So go ahead, tell me.
{144544}{144623}- Come on.|- I'm not telling you now.
{144652}{144729}What do I have to do,|go to the lecture?
{144729}{144801}Yes. Buy the book.
{144930}{145012}Well, it's a hotel,|and it's in the country.
{145415}{145455}Thank you.
{145549}{145582}Yes.
{145762}{145810}Well, will it do?
{145810}{145861}Oh, it's beautiful.
{145899}{145949}You seem to have|survived the journey.
{145949}{146062}Yes, but I could use a drink.|Do they have room service?
{146062}{146112}Room service?
{146112}{146191}I should think the room service|was saying your prayers in bed.
{146191}{146295}Well, you can order some prayers.|I will take a gin and tonic.
{146318}{146345}Now?
{146345}{146407}Sure. Why not?
{146407}{146450}All right.
{146472}{146520}- Honey?|- Hmm?
{146520}{146575}You can use the telephone.
{146575}{146647}Where is it?|Yes, the phone.
{146702}{146748}Room service.
{146824}{146863}Hello?
{146889}{146975}Yes, this is Mr. Lewis|in room num...
{146975}{147040}I'm sorry, I've forgotten the room...|the number of the room.
{147040}{147136}I'm already in the room, you see.|You do? Good.
{147194}{147237}Yes, a gin and tonic.
{147316}{147412}A gin and tonic.|Yes, two gin and tonics.
{147412}{147498}Two gins and tonic, I should say.
{147498}{147572}Yes, I'm sorry.|Thank you. Bye.
{147616}{147671}You don't like gin.
{147704}{147750}I'm afraid I panicked.
{147798}{147827}Come here.
{147906}{147978}The Golden Valley|runs along the River Dwr.
{147978}{148050}Here, let me show you on the map.
{148050}{148129}It runs from here to here.
{148155}{148227}- Why "Golden"?|- It's a mistake.
{148227}{148340}The Welsh for water is dwr, which|sounds like d'or, French for "golden."
{148340}{148407}It isn't golden at all.|It's wet.
{148407}{148484}Now, where can one get a view|of the valley?
{148484}{148536}I should go along here...
{148536}{148627}down to the junction here,|and turn left at this little road.
{148627}{148699}That'll take you up|into the hills.
{148745}{148802}You know, I don't know|why we're doing this.
{148802}{148841}Yes, you do.
{148867}{148970}It probably won't be the same.|It'll all be changed or spoiled.
{149114}{149148}Thank you.
{149373}{149469}Wait, that was it!|I'm wrong. The valley runs east-west?
{149479}{149514}No idea.
{149697}{149752}You know we're there already?
{149752}{149795}Where?
{149795}{149833}There.
{149879}{149951}There. Yes.
{150018}{150114}Daisy, daisy|give me your answer do
{151013}{151059}Now, that's it.
{152022}{152070}We almost made it.
{152480}{152569}You know, I don't want|to be somewhere else anymore.
{152569}{152653}I'm not waiting|for anything new to happen...
{152653}{152744}not looking around the next corner|and over the next hill.
{152744}{152826}I'm here now. That's enough.
{152881}{152977}- That's your kind of happy, isn't it?|- Yes. Yes, it is.
{153104}{153161}It's not going to last, Jack.
{153307}{153394}We shouldn't think about that now.|Let's not spoil the time we have.
{153394}{153442}It doesn't spoil it.
{153471}{153516}It makes it real.
{153624}{153720}Let me just say it|before this rain stops and we go back.
{153818}{153864}What is there to say?
{153921}{153979}That I'm going to die.
{154008}{154094}And I want to be with you then too.
{154094}{154190}The only way I can do that is if|I'm able to talk to you about it now.
{154257}{154319}I'll manage somehow.|Don't worry about me.
{154319}{154367}I think it|can be better than that.
{154367}{154454}I think it can be better|than just managing.
{154545}{154605}What l... What I'm trying to say is...
{154653}{154741}the pain then|is part of the happiness now.
{155281}{155321}That's the deal.
{156484}{156542}Yes. That's good.
{156542}{156611}Whoo! Don't go in the river.
{156611}{156671}Yeah. You've got it.
{156671}{156731}That's good. That's it.
{156822}{156885}Douglas, come in and get warm|for a while.
{157753}{157801}I'm sorry, Jack.
{158539}{158630}She'll be better here.|No stairs to climb.
{158788}{158841}Can't you do something?
{158863}{158901}I'm afraid not.
{158968}{159045}Douglas, you couldn't go|and fetch the other pillow, could you?
{159683}{159795}- Thank you, Doctor.|- I'll see you tomorrow. Night, night.
{159858}{159934}- Good night, young man.|- Thanks for coming.
{159934}{160030}A lot of silly fuss, huh?|Get over here.
{160076}{160131}Come on.
{160131}{160179}Give me a hug.
{160400}{160496}Help him. You will remember it,|I know you will. It will be hard.
{160630}{160704}Remember what we talked about,|'cause it's important.
{160762}{160810}Good night.
{160810}{160858}Good night, Mommy.
{160970}{161006}Go to sleep.
{161236}{161275}Blast.
{161493}{161553}Here, Joy. There.
{161596}{161675}God, I can't bear|to see you in pain like this.
{161759}{161800}It's all right.
{161831}{161884}Keeps me quiet.
{161932}{162042}When it gets close, you'll find out|whether you believe it or not, yes?
{162083}{162171}Didn't you always say|real life hasn't begun yet?
{162207}{162279}You better be right.
{162752}{162797}Still here?
{162836}{162886}Still here.
{162951}{162989}Go to bed.
{163020}{163078}Get some sleep.
{163106}{163147}Soon.
{163272}{163325}I'm tired, Jack.
{163363}{163411}I wanna rest.
{163464}{163543}I just don't wanna leave you.
{163596}{163660}I don't want you to go.
{163703}{163768}Too much pain.
{163768}{163814}I know.
{164159}{164221}I don't know what to do.
{164248}{164305}You'll have to tell me|what to do.
{164459}{164514}You have to let me go.
{164605}{164675}I'm not sure that I can.
{164938}{164984}Will you take care|of Douglas?
{165044}{165140}- Can't hear you.|- You will take care of Douglas?
{165142}{165195}Of course.
{165195}{165240}He pretends not to mind.
{165267}{165322}- I know.|- Like you.
{165370}{165425}No more pretending.|Not anymore.
{165574}{165626}I've loved you so.
{165734}{165837}Don't talk, my love.|Just rest.
{165914}{165974}My love, just rest.
{166000}{166034}Shh.
{166127}{166173}Just rest.
{166883}{166991}I love you, Joy.|I love you so much.
{167051}{167182}You've made me so happy.|I didn't know I could be so happy.
{167242}{167314}You're the truest person|I've ever known.
{167420}{167458}Sweet Jesus...
{167499}{167561}be with my beloved wife, Joy.
{167616}{167681}Forgive me if I love her too much.
{167722}{167772}Have mercy on us both.
{169122}{169216}We therefore commit the body|of thy servant, Joy...
{169216}{169254}to the elements:
{169254}{169321}Earth to earth...
{169321}{169383}ashes to ashes...
{169383}{169458}dust to dust.
{169654}{169702}This way, Douglas.
{169755}{169892}Thank God for your faith. Only faith|makes sense of times like this.
{169892}{169937}I know.
{170527}{170589}What's happening to me, Warnie?
{170618}{170681}I can't see her anymore.
{170704}{170764}I can't remember her face.
{170824}{170875}I expect it's shock.
{170875}{170915}I'm so afraid...
{170915}{170961}of never seeing her again.
{170987}{171062}Of thinking that suffering|is just suffering after all.
{171091}{171150}No cause. No purpose.
{171150}{171206}- No pattern.|- L...
{171258}{171318}I don't know what to tell you.
{171390}{171441}Nothing.
{171441}{171529}There's nothing to say.|I know that now.
{171582}{171664}I've just come up against|a bit of experience.
{171695}{171767}Experience is a brutal teacher.
{171798}{171846}But you learn.
{171872}{171932}My God, you learn.
{172035}{172086}I really do think|one or two of us should have gone.
{172086}{172143}Certainly not.|We hardly knew the woman.
{172143}{172198}I haven't even seen him|for a couple of weeks.
{172198}{172294}I wouldn't say this to Jack,|but better sooner than later.
{172299}{172356}- Is he taking it very hard?|- Yes, I'm afraid so.
{172356}{172409}Rupert, could we have a word together|after all?
{172409}{172443}- Yes, sir.|- Evening, Jack.
{172443}{172488}Good evening.
{172519}{172582}I wasn't going to come,|but then I thought I would.
{172582}{172627}Life must go on.
{172654}{172726}I don't know that it must,|but it certainly does.
{172726}{172778}- I'm sorry, Jack.|- Thank you, Christopher.
{172778}{172826}- We're all deeply sorry.|- Thank you.
{172867}{172913}Anything I can do?
{172913}{172997}Yes, just don't tell me|it's all for the best, that's all.
{172997}{173064}Only God knows|why these things have to happen, Jack.
{173064}{173133}- God knows, but does God care?|- Of course.
{173133}{173229}We see so little here.|We're not the creator.
{173277}{173330}We're the creatures, aren't we?
{173330}{173385}We're the rats|in the cosmic laboratory.
{173385}{173450}I've no doubt the experiment|is for our own good, but...
{173450}{173510}it still makes God the vivisectionist,|doesn't it?
{173582}{173658}It won't do.
{173658}{173742}It's this bloody awful mess,|and that's all there is to it.
{173773}{173831}I'm sorry. I am sorry.
{173874}{173939}Just not fit company tonight,|that's all.
{174133}{174191}- Yes?|- Your grief is your own business.
{174191}{174255}Maybe you feel life is a mess.|But there's Douglas.
{174255}{174296}- What about Douglas?|- Talk to him.
{174296}{174380}- I don't know what to say to him.|- Just talk to him!
{175294}{175363}When my mother died...
{175363}{175409}I was your age.
{175435}{175504}I thought that if|I prayed for her to get better...
{175504}{175600}and if I really believed|she'd get better...
{175603}{175651}then she wouldn't die.
{175687}{175735}But she did.
{175792}{175843}It doesn't work.
{175931}{175982}I don't care.
{176046}{176104}I loved your mother very much.
{176169}{176265}Perhaps I loved her too much.|She knew that.
{176267}{176353}She said to me,|"Is it worth it?"...
{176353}{176435}'cause she knew|what it would be like later.
{176435}{176507}Doesn't seem fair, does it?
{176550}{176615}I don't see why|she had to get sick.
{176615}{176653}Nor me.
{176821}{176874}But, uh...
{176874}{176950}you can't hold onto things,|Douglas.
{176950}{177005}You have to let them go.
{177355}{177418}Do you believe in heaven?
{177502}{177566}Yes, I do.
{177658}{177720}I don't believe in heaven.
{177751}{177797}That's okay.
{177895}{177957}I sure would like|to see her again.
{178403}{178466}Me too.
{178466}{178506}Oh, God.
{179595}{179638}Hello. Who are you?
{179638}{179693}Chadwick, sir.|You're my tutor this term.
{179693}{179779}Am I? Chadwick?|Right. Come on.
{179887}{179952}- Chadwick, you say?|- Yes, sir.
{179981}{180026}Sit down.
{180182}{180218}"We read...
{180218}{180283}to know we're not alone."
{180316}{180357}Do think that is so?
{180446}{180518}Well, I hadn't thought of it|before like that, sir.
{180551}{180607}Nor did I.
{180691}{180808}I suppose some people would say we love|to know we're not alone.
{180808}{180837}Would you?
{180868}{180964}Well, if you mean falling in love,|I haven't, really.
{180964}{181045}I mean, I probably know more about love|from books...
{181045}{181105}than from personal experience.
{181206}{181302}Go on. I'm listening.
{181302}{181359}I don't think any of us|want to be alone.
{181405}{181491}Why love|if losing hurts so much?
{181532}{181626}I have no answers anymore,|only the life I have lived.
{181686}{181748}Twice in that life...
{181748}{181803}I've been given the choice:
{181829}{181875}As a boy...
{181930}{181985}and as a man.
{181985}{182105}The boy chose safety.|The man chooses suffering.
{182151}{182247}The pain now|is part of the happiness then.
{182287}{182333}That's the deal.
{182431}{182477}Come on.
